hmmmm

I like watching movies. I am not sure why I like watching them since they are not connected with reality. Like Romance in movies are seem so fake and unreal to me. I am not sure if it even has anything to do with the movies themselves or if it has more to do with me. I once told somone that there are really only two things that I honestly want. One is to serve God and the other is a loving wife. I beleive that both are good things and within God's will. Maybe however one will last a lifetime and one is not ready to take place because I still have more to do in life that is best done with only the Lord. I do not write this because I am sad or depressed. I write this to accept reality. See I think God has been telling me something that I know is a part of his will but the fact of the matter is I do not like it that much. I suppose God does not ask what we like but knows does what he wills in justice. So till I am ready to meet this girl that I may love completly and be loved by I will smile and do the one thing I can till I am able to do both things I wish to do.

Tim