I just don't want coffee

There is a song by Cademons Call named "I just don't want Coffee". The Song is about how he does not want coffee and will not go to a coffee shop. The reason is that he use to go to that coffee shop with a girl that he loved. She was not a Christian and he is. So he does not want coffee is his way of saying that he can not see this girl any more. In the song he says that regardless what he chooses they both lose. Interesting story you might say. Well I got it from the man who wrote the song at a cd signing. However why say all that?

Well there are no coffee shops in VA that I have gone to with a girl on a date. There are none of those memorize around hear. But there are memories in my head of girl. These thoughts are in my head a lot. Sometimes they tug at my heart so that I feel them physically. However, I have been thinking about how to deal with them lately. What will I do? There are stupid romantic ideas that come to my mind. Ones like taking a walk and talking and some how magically she is back in my smile. However this is about the time that the refreshing words of wisdom kick in and bring me back to the facts. That it is not mine to control and manipulate and even if it was is it right? No, seems to be the answer that I know is true in my resesses of my mind that I do not wish to admit. However, I do at the cost of my fantasy world I do. Why must I wish to live in a world of fantasy when the Lord has his own plans for me that will exceed my short sightedness? Perhaps its because I know that even though I do not want to date again I will and one day I will marry a girl that will love me as much as I will love her. What I try to focus on is not what I have loss but what I have gained in Christ as he has used people in my life to grow me as he is perfecting me in his gracious will. So may the Lord be praised and his name always be praised for the wonders and joys and happiness he gives us as he brings us through the low places.

Tim