hey

So just wanted to say hey to anyone that reads my blog. I have nine days left counting today of working at Liberty on the building services crew (cleaning dorm rooms). So here is a thought of what I might be doing post graduation. I will start attending seminary at Liberty and begin working on a Masters. While I do that I would like to get a job as a R.D. I talked to a man that I work with and his daughter was one and just out of curiousity I asked what the benifits and pay were. Of course not much pay. Basically the same pay that you would get if you did a job that payed about 6.50 an hour and worked a regular 40 hour week. However you get a free place to live. And free food from the caffeteria. Sounds good to me. So that is a job that I am going to apply for. O and you get to hang out with a bunch of college students. Sounds like fun to me. Anyways have a great and wonderful Sunday :).

Tim

I just don't want coffee

There is a song by Cademons Call named "I just don't want Coffee". The Song is about how he does not want coffee and will not go to a coffee shop. The reason is that he use to go to that coffee shop with a girl that he loved. She was not a Christian and he is. So he does not want coffee is his way of saying that he can not see this girl any more. In the song he says that regardless what he chooses they both lose. Interesting story you might say. Well I got it from the man who wrote the song at a cd signing. However why say all that?

Well there are no coffee shops in VA that I have gone to with a girl on a date. There are none of those memorize around hear. But there are memories in my head of girl. These thoughts are in my head a lot. Sometimes they tug at my heart so that I feel them physically. However, I have been thinking about how to deal with them lately. What will I do? There are stupid romantic ideas that come to my mind. Ones like taking a walk and talking and some how magically she is back in my smile. However this is about the time that the refreshing words of wisdom kick in and bring me back to the facts. That it is not mine to control and manipulate and even if it was is it right? No, seems to be the answer that I know is true in my resesses of my mind that I do not wish to admit. However, I do at the cost of my fantasy world I do. Why must I wish to live in a world of fantasy when the Lord has his own plans for me that will exceed my short sightedness? Perhaps its because I know that even though I do not want to date again I will and one day I will marry a girl that will love me as much as I will love her. What I try to focus on is not what I have loss but what I have gained in Christ as he has used people in my life to grow me as he is perfecting me in his gracious will. So may the Lord be praised and his name always be praised for the wonders and joys and happiness he gives us as he brings us through the low places.

Tim

words

So I was reading Hebrews today and boy let me tell you that is a deep book. When the arthur who I do not believe to be Paul make the statement about leaving the elemental things of faith moving on to the deeper things He sure ment it. I feel like asking if I could have some tenderizer to help soften the meat so that I can eat it. However with all that said the verse I want to share with you is this. "For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weakness, but One who has been tempted in all things as we are, yet without sin. 16 Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may recieve mercy and find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:15-16. This passage not only gives us psychological stregnth knowing that Our Lord has suffered everyway we have and over come it. But hope is offered in the same breath that it can be overcomed with Christ. What I love is that we draw near to the throne of Grace. Later in Hebrews it mentions that we as believer will die and after that death judgment. Only for us it is not a judgment where sins will brought to account. Thats a relief to me. So this throne of grace is a throne that we can approach with confidence knowing that these sins are forgivin and that we will recieve mercy and grace to help us and not condemnation of our sin because of Christ. Be encouraged fellow believers we have a living eternal high Priest Jesus Christ.

Tim

Advice

I am given a lot of advice. I find it interesting that I am quick to dismiss some peoples advice and gling to others. For instance normally when a peir gives me advice I am thankful that they were willing to share but am very slow to listen to what they say. Although their is even exception to this. About a hand ful of my friends that have lives that reflect proven character and a steadfast determination to follow after the Lord I listen to carefully. A voice of Wisdom that I trust everytime I hear it is Proverbs. Though I say I trust it. I wish that this trust could be demonstrated consistantly. For though I know that what I am told is true and I see more and more evident. I too often fail and I act as if I am a slave of sin and not a slave to the righteousness that I have been granted through faith. My parents are extreemly wise people and have lived life and observed life. When I ask them for advice and they give it I have yet to see how following it has been bad. Yet, isn't that the message that Proverbs gives to us time and time again. Obedience to God is life and peace. However, we constantly fight against this life and peace that we are freely given and struggle to obtain death in sin. Their is a reason I write this.

One is that personally as all men I struggle with doing what is right in every day life. Love over hate ect... However most people that read this are cedarville people. So let me relate this to Cedarville. There are not very many rules at Cedarville. The rules that we do have promote Godly character and it would be hard to say that a rule at Cedarville goes against the character of God. However students complain about dress code. Why because they want to dress how they want without being told how they must dress. Then when they are given a fine for volentarily breaking these rules treat those who punished them as if they were in the wrong. I suppose one of the ones that I find most ironic is that pertaining to dorm life. I have to do room checks once a week. That means that for Me you must have a room that is decent 1 out of 7 days each week. So when I write people fines some of the things I hear are things like this is stupid I am not a kid why do I have to clean my room. Now when I steep back and think about this statement I am confused. Here is a person claiming to be an adult yet does not want to live in a clean room because he is lazy. So what he says to me to try to make me feal like I did something wrong is your treating me like a child because you are making me clean my room. What I want to say to that guy is well if you want to be treated as an adult then do not complain about missing the mark. Instead pay the fine and next week be responsible and clean your room. Could you imagine your mom saying hey do not get angry at me the house is dirty I am an adult I do not have to clean my house. No, we would say that she is a bad house wife or lazy or whatever. i quess why I am writting this is because I am thinking about how to talk to guys in my dorm and make them realize that if we actually abide by the rules of Cedarville and practice this discipline in our lives it will make us more responsible and will show that we are men of character that respect the authority set up by God above us. Well that is all for my posting today. Have a great Sunday.

Tim

The war of the Jews

So I read this book called "The War of the Jews" written by Flabious Josephus. If you are not familar with the author he was a Jewish historian that lived in the first century. He was a very wealthy man that was extreemly educated. He had a desire to write a history telling the story of what happened to his people as they were crushed by the Romans. Anyways if you want the story you should pick yourself up a copy or check it out of the libary. Make sure you get a translation unless you are doctor Hofeditz and wish to read the whole thing in greek. Anyways it was one of the most moving histories I have ever read in my life. It is quite amazing to see Deuteronomy 29 in action. However the Jews know that Ezekeil 37 will one day come to past and Romans 11:26 is true "all Israel will be saved" despite their sinfulness. Which is exactly the same way we are all saved. God does not wait for us to become righteous to save us. He saves us because we are utterly depraved.

Tim

car

I am on my way right now to buy my first car. First car in that it will be the first one that I will ever actually buy. It is great to see how God has provided so much for me. He is graciously giving me this car practically through some great friends. He is given me a summer job so that I am able to go and buy the car. He is great and he even has provided almost entirely for my last year of college already. The Lord is truly a great provider.

I am really looking forward to this next year of school. There are things that I could be scared of but I do not see that as a very godly thing to do. After all God has not given us a spirit of fear but one of courage and hope. I will be honest that this next year looks uncertain to me. I suppose what I mean by this next year looks uncertain is that I am not sure what exactly I will do after I graduate. I am not sure when God will allows me to meet and get together with a woman that I get to share my life with. I do know that I am going to have some great guys in Palmer next year. Some of which are already interested in the way that they are living. They want to walk in a manner that is pleasing to the Lord and that is really encouraging to hear some guy’s say that they want to walk blameless before the Lord. In proverbs today I read it says get away from a fool. It brings me great encouragement to know that there are some guys that want to stop being fools and stop walking in sin and want to be wise and gain understanding and show thankfulness to God for the great price that he paid for their sins.

I will stop for now or else I might write a book.

Tim

emotions

Hey so I have been thinking about emotions. I have had a lot of them lately. Though they have been held under by some calm power. I assume this is the Lord keeping me under his might and keeping my heart from being over whelmed. I suppose the emotions that God allows to over come me great than others resontly have been when I read the scriptures and pray. He shows me the areas that are not holy in my life. These then bring me back to think of Christ sacrifice.
I do not see much good in bearing my soul or emotions in that most of the thoughts that are produced are not in line with what one should think and say. So I think the Lord has been teaching me that restraint of the tounge is good. Inner peace does not mean that a storm is not raging but more that God is controling the storm. He is at the wheele and keeps things from spilling over.

Tim

theology and love

Theology and love. What do they have to do with each other? I think a lot. Lets take love for just a moment and set God asside. When this is done your left with one kind of love. That love is love of ones self. How sad and depressing is it to waste a word such as love on on self love.
Theologically God has demostrated love to us in more ways than can be counted. This selfless act of love that he shows us every day is found in Christ his son. With this example in mind it keeps me from crying at night and from being depressed about not haveing a special girl in my life. As I know God more and more which is funny to say since knowing God is something that will never be finished. I see that the way that God has set things up and the laws and commands he has given us are truely selfless lallws on his part. The things we call restrictions such as things we can not do are in fact things that would drive us away from God which is love.
Love that flows from God What I must not forget is that without love I am nothing more than a clanging symbol. A noise machine that no one likes is what happens to be without love. And love is not found in serving my self but In God and others.

Tim

in response to Robin

Not sure who Robin is but o well. Robin the feminist I am making reference to are "Christian Feminism" who write as Egaletarianism. So maybe you might want to do some reading.

Tim

hey

Hey everyone,

Just to let everyone know what I am up to these days is what this post is for. I am working from 3-11 pm for Liberty on their buildings services crew. I work every day except Thurseday and Friday. So basically I am a maid/ mover. It keeps me busy and thats good. I also have a math class that will be over this friday. So tomorrow will be a math day all day. I am looking forward to the math class being over so I can have a morning to do things like read and study things I want to and play frisbey golf :)

Love to hear from all of ya'll.

Tim

Sexuality

I have been reading a very interesting book. A mark of a Man is the name of the book. The first 100 pages of the book is mainly a discusion about masculinity or gender roles. Their is a big movement towards "egalitarianism". First off the word is a word that tends to paint a negative character on the traditional and correct interpetation of scripture that is hieraical (men and women are equal in being but have different and distinct roles). The term thats root means equal seems good. I would say that to hold to anything except that men (in a sexual sense) and women (in a sexual sense) are not distinct in roles is wrong and results in negative things.

The man in a marriage relationship is the head of the woman his wife. This headship denotes authority within the marriage. The authority is carried out in love. This is modeled to us by Christ the head of his church. Christ has the authority over his church. A Biblical example of this is found in Revelation 1-3 in the letters to the churches. Their Christ is acting as the head. The analogy of the head (man/Christ) and body (woman/Church) is found in the Ephesians chapter five.

The Egalitarians say that everyone is to be submissive to each other thus eliminatting the role of men and women in the family. Some egalitarians will say that a man may even be submissive to his wife through sacrificial love. Strange how the Bible does not come to that conclusion when it says that the wife is submissive to her husband and husbands likewise are to love their wife as Christ loved the Chruch and gave himself up for her. There sacrificial love is not seen as submission. However that is not the total purpose of this posting to argue over the interpetation of the scriptures. The purpose is to show the results of such a philosophy that comes when one departs from God's sexual roles.

When a man and a woman are seen as interchangable in their roles in that a man could be submissive to a woman in a marriage. This view of sexuality results in feminism. The feminist see gender roles as evil in that if a woman's role is to be submissive then she is inferior to the man. This is never the conclusion of the Bible. The Bible simply says that God set up society to be a certian way and that the gender roles are the way life should be lived. The denial of specific gender roles also open up the possiblity of homosexual marriage.

If marriage does not have to have a male at the head then why does it need to have a woman as the submissive member of the marriage? It does not is the conclusion. So homosexuals are taking the same reasoning that their is no specific gender role in marriage and creating a fake marriage of two men or two women. No longer is one man and one woman needed to fill the requirements of the gender roles of a marriage after all they are mere societal norms not truths. See how far you can go when you start to move outside the roles and ways God set things up. Well I could go on but I think that you can look around society and see this philosophy in work from clothes to dating attitudes ect...

Tim