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So I have been a pretty silent person for the past few days. I have not said much or had that much to say. It is not as though I have been thinking about anything very important or life changing. I have almost just unpluged and gone numb for the last few days. Most of the talking has been stupid things that does not even matter. I just feel like I have not really talked to anyone in a while.

I figured I opened up and said what I was thinking a few days ago and that did not go well so I wrote down reality for my self and since then I have just been blah. Going to school now seems weird. I am moving out to Palmer to be an R.A. off some guys I do not know that well. I am going to graduate to do ????? Also to be honest When Kelly broke up with me a lot of good things happened but I have not been as happy since she broke up with me. I sorry for mentioning a her name. I still think she is great and anyone reading this should also. I also think that she had good reasons for breaking up with me. My purpose is not to make her look bad at all just to say that in all honesty it affects me.

I got to see Ashely Ferran today. Also meet some of her friends. She is always such a nice girl. Except when she rubs sun rippend rasberry cream into your bed when you go the bathroom and it smells that way for a week.

I think that my conclusion is that I do not understand my life now. I do not really feel great about it. But like I read the other day in proverbs. Proverb 1:28-33 "Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me: Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me: For that they hatted knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the Lord: THey would non of my cousel: they despised all my reproof. Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own devices. For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. But whoso hearkeneth uton me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil."

Tim