moving

Moving normally says your leaving something and moving to something else. While yes physcially I am doing this. I do not feel this way. I would say so because I have been away from home so long at college. My home now feels like Cedarville. I do not feel at home while I am at my house. Even before It became a house full of boxes. So why is this? Well if I could answer that then I would not be writting now would I? I write a lot sometimes to try and figure out things but I think that is perhaps a wrong method. Some times I think my proper response should be to accept. Accept that the Lord is moving my family and me in my life.

My life is in a weird state. Like my world lately has been picked up and turned around. I was walking in a dirrection of self destruction and now the Lord is teaching me that the way I was going was wrong. I need to make Christ truely the center of my life. To be honest that is incredibly hard. I still have things that fight for my attention and things that want me to serve them rather than the Lord. Another thing is relationships. They are rocky in my life. In that department I know what I would like to happen but not sure that is what the Lord will provide in my life.

I have been trying to listen to people more. That is something I think I have a great problem with because of my pride. Pride in my life was and might still be a storm that loomed over me. I constantly was looking down at people. I was thinking of how I measured up mainly how I measure better to them. This is sin and worked its way out in my never listening to a thing that people said. If I do not think the person is truely equal to me in my mind than I will not truely listen to them. Proverbs talks about this. James says that one should be quick to listen and slow to speak. These are so hard when one is prideful. For when one is prideful I thought that I knew everything and that listening to a person was merely humoring them till it was my turn to speak.

That sure took a weird turn. Well feel free to post comments.

Tim